DEFINE HOLIDAY

Its not the only time for travelling, BUT to:

1) wake up late in the morning without an alarm clock after a real late sleep

2) having nice coffee and breakfast at the kitchen bar while looking outside the window

3) watching tv all day long while mulut tak berhenti mengunyah

4) berjimba tanpa sebarang gangguan

5) lepak mamak after futsal session without even thinking of "oh esok kerja damn"

6) hanging out with Bubu at grooming center

7) lunch with baby like almost everyday :)

8) spending time with family watching all episodes of Super Spontan and Karoot Komedia.haha

So, hargai cuti anda yg tak seberapa itu. Yang paling penting, tidur itu harus!ahahahhaha

Cheers.

.assalamualaikum.

2 off days!

Ok thats the trend in Emergency Dept. Yu work for 5 longgg days and yu get2 shorttt days off.heheh. Ok ok syukur alhamdulillah. Recharging the dry cells, alignment and balancing, changing oils and the spark plugs. Wahh, kesan car service.hahaha. Oh ha ha ha jugak. Oleh krane org bawak krete, kau pon nk bawak kerete, siap terlebih limit service gitu..so terime la balasannye. Converting 20k km kepade 30k km service , pemanduan yang lebih hebat ala ala F1 kan..so terduduk la jugak kan membayar kehandalan diri ini.hehe. Oh ok.tetibe rase comel pulak bile swift ni di kedudukan yg tinggi mase balance balance tu, kalo boleh terbang kan best?tayah pk jem jem?ok! Ari ni da dingdongg, byk duit habis. Tkpe asal utang piutang langsai nok.. Cheerrrrsss..

Bubu.

Dah sehari Bubu tak balik. Bubu pergi mane? Jangan buat kakak risau. Kakak ade Bubu je skang ni....balik pls....plss..pls....

R.I.P JOJI sayang.

one fine evening, my brother, Am rang me. "Kakak, hidong joji bedarah!". Dalam hati aku..humm..da tak lame joji ni. Terpakse redha. Allah lebih dia :'( Joji- she's my lovely lil kid of Bubu (my fat-chubby Moscowian cat). She has been diagnosed with peripheral neuropathy when she started to develop weakness of both back legs on 1/2/12. She cant even stand on it. Dragging is all she can do. Oh my, sedih gile kot wey. I brought Joji to Dr Cham's clinic, he's the vet. He said, all we can do was giving vitamin which can help the nerves to regenerate. From then, Joji started to take methylcobalamin twice a day. I noted Joji started to have small wound at her left leg. So again, me and my brother brought this little princess to Hospital Veterinary Gasing in PJ. Examinations done. Xray done, no fractures but she dont even have the pain of her both legs, even tho the vet lady pinched them to the max. "This is not a good prognosis" she said. But we still hoping and hoping that Joji will recover. Am created one special wheelchair..just for her. She's kinda like it. Cause she felt like getting back her legs.yay! Day by day,the more we lifted her up, the more pain she felt, the more fierce she was. We tot that's a good improvement( i mean in term of getting all her sensation nerves back). Tapi tak.... Am sms me on one fine evening. Telling me that Joji's having nose bleed. I was so worried. Thinking of going back home immediately. But two hours later, at 740pm..am sms me. "kakak, Joji dah mati". And i was like.. Whatttt! Ya Allah, sedihnye mase tu Tuhan je yang tahu betape sebak gila..menitis2 air mate aku dalam emergency room tu..i asked my brother to wait until i came home,before we buried her. Bila aku sampai rumah, aku bukak je selimut yang baru aku beli utk kaver cage Joji..she's there. Tapi tak bekelip-kelip pandang aku mcm die salu buat bila aku balik dari hospital. Terbaring kaku. Sejuk. Sesejuk-sejuknya. Kenapa Joji tak tunggu kakak..... :( Tapi kakak tahu..mesti Joji tengah gembira berjalan-jalan..lompat-lompat kat syurga kan?ade makanan lagi sedap dr whiskas..ade malaikat2 yang jage Joji lebih bagus dr kami jage Joji...aku bersyukur Ya Allah..ko da hentikan seksa Joji dekat dunia ni..alhamdulillah...walopon sedih sangat sangat sangat..aku tahu..Allah knows the best for everything. Semoga jumpa Joji di syurga. R.I.P Joji sayang (15/2/12).

Moscow

2 tahun lepas, aku pernah cakap yg aku takkan pernah mungkin rindukan Moscow. Aku gembire gile bile tiket balik ke Malaysia dah confirmed (walopon 2-3 kali kene tipu dgn travel agent celaka tahap gaban syaiton'nirrojim). Happy tak terkire mase packing, and there you go, Sheremetevo Airport jadi saksi kali terakhir jasad (wah!) Iznee dilihat di bumi Moscow, Russia.
And now, here i am, at 4pm 31st January 2012, feeling like crying, screaming..for missing Moscow too bad..!
Banyak sgt suke duke yg aku hadap kat sane. Terlampau banyak derrrr. 6 tahun mmg rase cam seco'et tet je masenye, tp knangan tu kalau hamparkan satu lautan pon mungkin melimpah ruah lagi disebbkan tak cukop space. haa, gitu sekali adenye hikayat sang pencerite.

Rutin yg same aku buat tiap2 hari, bangun pagi, mandi air panas yg kdg2 lebih banyak tangki air panas bocor yg menyebabkan aku tpakse mandi air sjok kematu smpi tahap nak cramp otot2 pipi, kejar bas 295/712 ke Konkova Metro ataupon 718 ke Yugo Zapadnaya, berbekalkan monthly bus ticket yang berharge 320rubs sebulan. Dengan  winter jacket yg tebalnye mengalahkan lapisan bumi, stokin yg da tahap 2-3 layer kek lapis apollo, tak kire lagi gloves and muffler yg da level tutop batang hidong. Ala2 zoro nkg memburu tupai. Zoro pon mungkin tak mngaku aku nih salah satu ahli kelurage beliau. Da pnat blari keja bas, keja metro yg da sparuh abad tu, sampai klas lecturer dtg lambat. Itu tak kire lagi yg kitorang salah hospital lagi, tunggu punye tunggu rupenye hospitalnye bukan yg itu, yg di region lain ye tuan-tuan dan puan-puan, so kesimpulannye tepakse buat taktahu dan balik ke hostel utk bsukeria dan prepare utk kene bantai dgn lecturer esok. Oh, takkan balik hostel tros kan buk?mestila pergi mnjamu selera dulu..dkt Kalushkaya Mall ke..menikmati sekeping TEPEMOK (pronounce : teremok, sejenis pancake yg dalamnye ade chocolate spread lazat + pisang sbatang)..pergh lazat..takpon melayani Filet-o-fish McDonalds (itu je pon yg boleh makan nokkk..hehe)..and then bru la balik ke Mosckva, 117439, Dom 39, Ulitsa Konkova, Komnata 12-16 (balshoi ili malenki?hahaha) ..utk dinner, ikot turn la sape yg masak nye,yang pasti Alan akan masokkan syrup utk merahkan kuah ayam masak merah beliau (Girl, i miss yu! harap2 ko tak bace entry yg ni, fuuuuh). Groceries, kalo tdesak2 tak spt beli kat Ashan (hypermarket paling unggul di mate rakyat Malaysia di Moscow), boleh di beli di kedai Ramu (dulu kat tikat 5, tp da maju skit da pindah ground floor (<-- ok ini pon perlu ckp ke?).

Weekend, kalo time2 Malaysian Games bakal menjelang, siboknye la hai pepagi tu dgn training basketball/handball/futsal. Ataupon kalau training abis awal, shopping groceries la dkt Ashan/ jalan2 dkt Mega dgn Gobats sayang. hehe. Pergi Ikea dgn shuttle bus atau naik mashrut kalo nk cpt skit, cakes, shrimpie salad (really missing my time with macik-gile-kek, Jokonon!!), malam2, layan cite antu (Aimi! missing yu with both of yo hands covering your eyes ++ BOBO covering yo whole body while watching thai horror movies!) hehe, takpon makan2 dkt Sinbad bwh tu smbil layan pool (oh darn i cant remember what i ate at Sibnad :((. Or else kalo ade ape2 event, usually weekend la time utk bermeeting bagai. pergh, dulu benci, skang rindu! haih....seriously, btol ckp diorang, enjoy yo students life.

Pergh, mcm gile weh aku tulis??hahahahah, dgn pnoh prasaan membara penuh kerinduan nih.hahahahah.
Ok, next blog --> Cinta Pertama (wow!)

Just another good day

Logbook - passed. Assessment - passed. Paediatrics dept - success! Regards, Iznee Sofi

End of my 4th battle.

Logbook - passed. Assessment - passed. Paediatrics dept - success! Regards, Iznee Sofi

Dear diary..

Dear hafiz, You got a new job. More promising. With just single interiew (or can i say a meeting), you passed it, and was proudly sent the offer letter. Wow. Woow. I'm proud of yu my sweet darling. Decision on decision, quitting this current job is not that easy tho. I knw how y feel, i know how yo days and night filled with fears and confusion. But, i believe yu. Yo decision would never be wrong. Just remember, I will always got your back, no matter what. Whatever happens. Regards, Iznee sofi

My new crib!

Hoyeah.best gile ok.best best! Tp humm bole tahan jaoh aaa jugak hukm. Tp antam sajja la. Yg aku tahu..kalo friday mmg tak balek uma..mmg tros shhooooott g kota dsara utk berfutsal. Kalo balik ruma, kompem futsal atas katilll...yang adooo. Uh smbg mopping + gardening la! Cauwa.

Paediatrics

It's been a month since i've been in this dept...hummmm...do I like it...hmmm...I quite like it..cause fortunately I had two good mo's...yeah..they dun treat me as as a houseman but as a colleague..great isn't it..but yeah..sum thing I do not like about here..mmm...some of the mo' are like having excessive estrogen or or progestrone...hum.tah..they sound silly sometimes..scolding ppl without no reason..ah yeah some of em..err...specialist mostly...are not married!!!! Deng Mengg...y arrr?ok I might sound exaggerating things out...but yeah most of them..hahahah!ok..ramzi remind me earlier..if yu choose to be a pediatrician..yu should have be ready to get marry late!ok now I believe yu!hahahaha Ok..today is my active day.new case come..I clerk..I present.5 pm..chow!!!! Cheerss... .assalamualaikum.

4th posting: PAEDIATRIC

Day 1.

Arrived at 11am in the morning. Register here and there, filled up this and that.
Called up the specialist who take care of houseman, and she said "i'll see yu when i see yu in the ward"
like, errr ok..specialist (always like that) bla bla

ok, there yu go. 2 months in general paeds, 1 month in paeds onco/daycare, 1 month in NICU (codepink).
And finish, senang kan (kepale hotak kaw)

Got PINK team! Lead by Prof Wu (they said she's nice), Dr Ng (specialist - she introduce herself to me..hmm not bad :), Dr Khurul, Chow, Boekhren, Joyce (the MOs). erm, so far, Joyce macam kerek. Khurul mcm ok. Chow best (i knew her since OnG) and Boekhren, ok kot?hehe.

Today, a good starting..no PINK labels on the patient's board! (which is no patient at all) haaha!i like. Welcoming me to this kanak2 riang world kan?

My team-mate - Fazrul. Macam biase, dgn muke ketat die..langsong tak orientate aku pagi td. Say hi pon tak, Ngok. Ptg bru nampak btg hidong, mase tu aku da mati kutu stress sorang2. Nasib bek ade Kak Dell, kalo tak aku da simbah hydrogen peroxide atas muke ktat ko tu Fazrul. Nasib baik wife ko baik. Kalo tak lagi skali aku simbah asid..garang ni!

Ow ok. Fuh fuh, smoge esok akan bahagia.

Thanks to MooCow, yogurt yg sdap. And thanks baby hero, sbb tman destresskan diri. Hehe. Sayang yu aw aw.

cheers..
.assalamualaikum.

New 4-month life.

That's it. Holiday is over! And now, this morning i'm preparing myself for the new posting. Which is..PAEDS?ED?ORTHOPEDICS? Which one, depends. Hope to get the paeds, as my previous posting was all about mom and  infants and la la la. Ok chalo.

I'm wondering, which difficulties level will this new posting be in..MEDICINE?SURGERY?OnG?hum..nobody knows.

chalo.
.assalamualaikum.

Sunday flies away.

Hey, woke up @ 11am.  Mama knocked my room's door, saying papa and her going for open houses, itu ini..am went to gym. And abe still sleeping. Took shower, BBMing Faeda the bongek, met up at Rashid's. Potpet a bit, chauu. Berchenta at Stw for few hours, then went home. Made baked macaroni, watched Momok and here i am, blogging @1230am. Deng meng, so fast wey! And tomorrow m going to be so un-decidable. If  Dr Ixora signed my precious logbook, then there i go. Starting back my so-called workaholisticshitty life AGAIN. If she never sign yet, like aww..Holiday for one more day! yeash!
err, ok.

                                                this is Faeda and her sangat beautiful fren ;)

ho ho ho.
.assalamualaikum.

It's a TEST, not a luck.

The decision has arrived. It's the starting point.

Dont worry, we'll go through it. It's just a matter of time.

We're so completely so able to sooo make it!

And its not a bad luck, its just a small test for us. Really small compared to others.

cheeeerrss.

.assalamualaikum.

SHOPPING.

Hye.
Says Oprah, 1 in 20 women spent on something they dont really need.
Why?
1) they shop under emotional influences (stress, depressed)
2) they didnt bring their list to groceries store
3) they walk along the aisle just to HAVE A LOOK AROUND
4) they didnt check their account bills, cards outstanding unpaid balance, card;s limit left - before they go shopping
5) they didnt shop like men - go to the store, grab their stuff, pay the bills and left

Avoiding shopping is as easy as ABC - but when it comes to me, its difficult as XYZZZzz bla blaaa...aduh!!

haiyo.
.assalamualaikum.

SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST **tutt**

For God sake, i double-parked my car with my phone number on the dashboard and some more you asked my."why the hell should i call you?" like..err...

That's the story. When some narrow-minded, modernized city folks cant just think as much as other ppl think. Staring on ppl (for just double parked your car!)as they had killed some of your stupid mother father loh! Ayyo. Dey, go back to yo hometown lah!

uh, i forgot. Maybe they felt angry at me because my face just looks like their ex-employer who just threw them away from the employee's list?oh sorry for that!ORRR..did they just told yu that yu are having HIV positive. pity yuu..BLUEK BLUEK. blablabla...like..haha..if thats the reason why you get so angry..i forgive yuu! muaahaha..mua HA HA HA.

see you.
.assalamualaikum.

Today.

Time goes by. Lin's married. Got pregnant!Jok's getting engage. Alan's had been 'risik'ED by torres. Maz, Sulas, A'an and Sam..and myself?still planning planning planning. Hehehe.
Me and hafiz.
We plan to get married soon. yeah, seriously we do think of getting our kids together. Live together. Do everything together. I cant wait! Money? Boleh dicari. Bak kate org, kalo asyik pk duit, smpi lebam kau tak kawen.
Uh, i just love him so much. I just cant live without him.God!
If sometimes there's some jealousness occur between us, Darling i just want you to know, its just because i just want you to be with me (yeah i know you will :) NO DOUBT.. (i would smack all the stupid ladies out there who's trying to interfere. SERIOUSLY - cause they should KNOW, they're just a piece of smelly dumbassisss RUBBISH)
Owh ok.
How's the feeling of buying barang2 hantaran together?AWWWWWWWWWW! so sweet!
Cant wait!! (again) kling kling kling.

Chaw.
.assalamualaikum.

THE END.

i finished O&G.
i finished O&G.
im so damn very damn damn HAPPY.
that's all i know.

goodbye labour room calls. goodbye all stupid medico legal.
goodbye all crazy VE. good bye all amniotic fluids.

SO well~

chEErs.
.assalamualaikum.

O'N'G = OMG!

It's been 3 days. Of ME being in OnG posting. Ppl said this is the most worriest, scariest place among other posting. Too early too judge. Looks scary after they put me in 1 week-tagging period with 3 EOD (every-other-day) call). You oncall yesterday, and you oncall back tomorrow. Boleh? :'(
   Anyway, lots of things to learn BACK. Since i'm Moscow grad, so many new 'beranak' terms to be learnt. Oh, not to be forgetten. All the midwives in labour room are SOMETHING. Some kind of psychosis kot?haihh..screaming to new taggers like they're the only one having damn stupid voice.
  Anyway, lets forget about it.
  So many things i need to cope up. From the knowledge, skills and environment. From how to conduct a baby, all the sequences after the delivery. All must be done with serious care. VERY care. If not, you will end up with writing an incident letter. Ouch. So far, ok la. I did my own delivery at 5 am yesterday, with one midwife yg sgt baik..! She taught me how to conduct a baby step by step. But i still slowly learning how to jahit the vagina. Ok, good sign ok. I was so GELI with all those MYSELF thingy tu before, but i slowly get used to it since i started with my OnG posting. Slowly...slowly..haish!~
  Oh, and the best part was, i already SNAPPED A CORD during my first call..!aduh..the placenta was so hard to remove and tight as well. So i just try to pull it out, ended up with CORD SNAP. And  Jui dgn slumberland nye berkate, " Baguslaa Iznee, aku tak pernah tgk real Cord Snap..". Bongok Jui.huhuhu..
  Wuargh~Zzzz.. Tomorrow oncall, sleep la now. tata.

ChEErs..
.assalamualaikum.

woman : emotional MORE.

Women tend to be more emotional than men.
Yeah.
Tonight, i feel myself annoying. Yes, my own-self. Why:
- lately i easily get annoyed by something/anything/anyone.
- i can't keep my patient longer than before.
- i hate to be around some ppl (some white-coloured skin, mata sepet) - i dont mean to be racist, but this is true. They're ANNOYING! especially this Cheras area (drove their fucking stupid exclusive car like this is their stupid motherfather's road)
- i easily increase my voice when speaking to those i love.
- i feel lost
- i feel stupid
- i feel darkness around.
(shyt, is this symptoms of depression?)

Argh. what happened.

Change Iznee change. Maybe i should get more rest? WTF. i had enough rest.

ergh!