Dear Diary..

Sunday, October 4, 2015

My labour progress.

Hello and Salam all.

It's been almost 9 months after the delivery. And this is the time for me to blog.Well, supermak. haih.

Today i feels like writing eveeeery single moment and stages of my delivery journey. itupun kalau ingat la. ngeh ngeh.


We had our so-called final appointment with Datuk Aziz @39w + 6d.
2nd BISHOP of the month done. The outcome - was just as same as previous bishop's. And as expected previously, the words that came out from Datuk's..hurm hurm "So, the baby is ready. You admit malam ni, we masuk ubat, you can already hug yo baby by tomorrow...Say..3-4pm?"
Adduhhh sayyang. Susahnye option ini. Tiadakah option lain? Macam..deliver sekarang tapi tak rasa sakit..?Or tak beranak tapi baby keluar otometik? Or, tutup mata tiba2 ade baby kat depan. ciku cak?ciku cak??! erious takde option wey. Either YES or NO.
So, yup. We said YES to that night's admission.

Later that night.
My husband drove me to Prince Court dengan penuh debaran dan kegirangan. Al-maklumla in less than 24h we re going to be the real 'mum and dad'. Bukan main main tp yang benar benar sahaja. I still remember telling my husband. "Esok lusa ni we lalu jalan yang same, tapi da bawak baby..kan?kan?". Hehe.

A warm welcome from the labour room staff cukup menenangkan jiwa yang celaru bak ikan gaharu cendana pula, sudah tahu bertanya pula.
Thus. the real journey begun. 1st cytotec inserted at 1030pm. Cytotec tu actually vaginal pessary untuk startkan labour process. Rippened the cervix to initiate the contraction. And yes, to make baby way outt jyeahh.....cardiotocography (CTG) straped up the abdomen and i cud listen to my baby's heart beat! Onyomnyom.


1230am: The midwife gave me the ravin enema, the medicine to clear out the instestine A.K.A ukk uk. Yeah anyway itu tak perlu cerita ye jemah \(*-')/
And me so the sleepy and so the sleep happily until jeng jeng, I woke up at 430am due to mild abdominal cramping.Ala ala period pain. In my mind. aaa sudah. Dia sudah marii ka....? And the pain came and went off. Fuh lega. nervous hokei.

630am: 2nd cytotec inserted. No pain, no gain. huwargh.

830am: Mild abdominal cramping. This time maybe a contraction?Yes it was a contraction. God knew how excited we were. We kept our eyes on the CTG machine, kalau boleh tanak berkelip tapi berair pulak mate nanti. Hehe.

1030am: Datuk Aziz came. Tersengih sengih. huhu. Artificial Rupture of Membrane (ARM) done. Pecah sudah air ketubanku yang ku simpan rapi selama 9 bulan. Dan arahan yang paling ditakuti. "Start IV Pitocin..". Within 5 mins of Pitocin initiation, the REAL contraction started.Well, tak sakit pun. Pernah rasa senggugut? ok, 13 kali ganda je. Oh, untuk yang lelaki..tak pernah rasa senggugut..?Hurm, pernah jatuh bangunan 20 tingkat? Tak saaaakit lah! kahkah. Datuk kept on asking me, nak epidural tak? Aku yang kononnye nk rasa natural birth ni.. dengan penuh ayu tapi confident - "takpe Datuk, i'm going natural'. Hambik kau, baru 20 mins start Pitocin, mencacau cari anest. EPIDURAL MEEEEEE..pehlissssss..kahkahkah! Supermak lah sangat kan? pengsan. Gile tak gile. Contraction macam saiko. Non-stop. No gap in between. all the way 4:10 kot. or 5 in 10? or 6 in 10? (anyway: PITOCIN tu adalah ubat yang dimasukkan ke dalam salur darah, tujuannya adalah untuk startkan contraction or untuk menguatkan contractions. Yang paling best, di saat ku memerlukan epidural STAT, my anest got one ongoing emergency case. And there's no available anest at the moment. And and and i have to wait for another 10-15 mins to get my injection done. **gigit bantal**.

1230pm: The pain was so unbearable. The os opening is only 2cm. The anest came and gave me my supermagical epidural. Well, lama sungguh nak effect pada nerves2 i! sakit doh. after an hour of the injection, i started to have this kind of numbness over both of my feet. Oh, don't forget about the contraction. Continuously until i felt like a ball stuck down there! Oh yes, its time!

1:23pm: There you go my babygirl! Welcome to the world! Fuh, fuh. Alhamdulillah. we are now one little precious family. Thank you baby Hafiz for the endless support and your tunggang terbalik melayan pushing moment of your sweet wife. Haha! what an experience! I'm sure want to go through this beautiful process once again!! tara!

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Week 39 and Day 5.

No signs of baby princess is coming out tonight yea.
No contractions.
No bloody show.
No leaking liquor.

So comfortable inside ke babygirl. How mommy and daddy feel like going in there and play with youuu..weeheheeeeeeeeeeeeee.............

Oh, i'm so happy that i could myself auscultate your fast heartbeat using my stathescope. For the FIRST TIME!! ooowwhhh... manis nye saat itu. Manis manis manis. Bile mommy nk denga lagi skali dah tak bunyi dah. Dah pandai main hide and seek ni. What a good progress! hahaha. Later i'll let daddy hear pulak ok. Kalau bernasib baik :p

Oh yes. Tomorrow my next appt with Datuk Aziz. Probably the final one? I wonder what he gonna say. Or decide. Or giving options, maybe? You want your baby's out..? Hell yeah! We misssssssss our baby so much!

Oh, that's her!! At 28th week of mommy's pregnancy. Bambam nyewww awwww tew tew tew. May you grow well and safe and sound and everything yang baik2 sahaje sayang!

We'll se you in NOOOO TIME!!!



Thursday, November 13, 2014

39th week and labour augmentation

Heyyo heyyo.

I went for my antenatal visit @ 39weeks yesterday and BISHOP score was done ( BISHOP score is the method of how your gynaecologist predicting your labour progress especially in your late pregnancy). Oh, guess what. My gynaeologist smiled and said, "OPTIONALLY, you can admit tonight and deliver you babygirl by tomorrow afternoon..if you want..".Terkejut beruk mokcik.
My BISHOP score was very good..cervix softened and the fetal station (kedudukan baby) was so low already, Almost all of her head is already in my pelvis area! But there's no cervical dilatation yet :(

Make it short, everything is ready. I just need the dilatation and contraction. There you go, BISHOP SCORE.

I was consulted by my gynae regarding labour augmentation (some said it's as same as labour induction) but yeah i think there's a different, Somehow.Usually induction will be done @38th week of pregnancy if there's any indication that will cause mother and baby in danger (if they wait for the due date for the labour to happen). Hypertension, Diabetes, postdate, etc. But nowadays, maybe people choose to augment or induce the labour just to..?get the best date..?planning for the holidays? pftt..

The day when a mother admit to the hospital, the gynae will insert the cervical tablet (Prostin which contains the prostaglandin) that will soften the cervix and for dilatation to happen. Next thing, if the contraction doesnt happen or weak, they will put in the IV Pitocin to initiate or increase the contraction. And tarra, Baby's out. OR, you will end up with the Caesarian Section. Because of non-progressive labour induction. Yeah things happen. Jika DIA kata JADILAH, siapa kita untuk menghalangnya. Kan? :)

So, back to reality. Pikir punya pikir and after asking for the experts opinions, we think..there's no need to rush. Why..?
1) no indication, i'm well so far. alhamdulillah..
2) i have no contraction at all
3) we need to talk to baby first about this..does she ready to come out? :)))))
4) aku yang tak prepare mental lagi. Petang ni decide nk beranak, esok dah beranak. fuih.

Yeah, it's different feeling if the contractions come on its own. Not planned. Betul tak?
And also true, if im scared that the augmentation process does'nt go well and end up with c-sect...actually it can happen anyway if your contraction comes naturally and your natural labour doesnt progress well. You ended up in the OT as well. Same je. Semuanya terserah pada Allah. Plan lah macam mane terbali dunie pon.

So here i am. Blogging. Waiting for the contraction to come. Waiting for husband to come home and eat dinner togetha!
Cuti sudah bermula! Heyyo heyyo! pariappa pariappa.
Hopefully i can update my labour progress in my next entry. Amin amin!


Thursday, November 6, 2014

The letter to our princess.

Assalamualaikum babygirl.
Hye, it's been 38weeks we've been together! Buat ape kat dalam tu sorang-sorang tu..? Tak sempit ke..? Nk pok amai2 pon mommy rase dah tak muat dah.. Kesian anak mommy daddy ni ye. Takpe..lepas ni..lepas dah keluar..kite pakat menggolek atas perot daddy ok? Mari kite golakkan jiwe daddy. Nak? Hehehe

So..anyway.. Bile our princess ni nak keluar jumpe mommy daddy..? (Bunyi jantung berdebar kenceengg). Cuak pulak gigirl. Eh, mommy. Takleh dah mommy nk fefeeling jadi gigirl. Pura2 cute macam sizuka. Oh maii. Bertukar status!

I just want you to know princess, this wonderful 9 months and yet counting is the best journey mommy and daddy ever have. You give us the best feeling and the sweetest moment ever! The way you make us nearly cry when the test strip shows POSITIVE sign (after few times of testing - with the same result), how we kept track on the babybump apps almost everyday of how you're progressing ( from the size of an appleseed until you become the size of a mini watermelon ngeeee), how mommy yang tak pernah nauseated and vomited tiba2 muntah sebaik sahaje bukak pintu kereta dan terus mc dan menjadi sayur the next day, how mommy suddenly had fever and bad cough that one night and daddy had to give mommy a massage smpi daddy nk terkerepot tahan ngantok (loveyou daddy). Oh oh, thankyou princess sbb tak buatkan mommy craving bende pelik cthnye mcm unta masak madu bersalut pasir buatan egypt mahupun mintak Audi a5. Kalau tak, sudah sudah tentu la mommy dicampak elok je ke dlm Lautan Hindi oleh daddy, bolehla alang2 tu mommy g join misi pencarian MH370 yg tak sudah2 tu. Oh, MH370 tu kapal terbang. Eh,  Nanti mommy cerita pasal MH370 ble baby da keluar ok? Bedtime story, hah amik. Advanced sangat.

Dear baby, mommy dah byk sgt dah denga cerite pasal contraction pain during labour..all those braxton hicks, plus plus this and that. And mommy can't wait to experience that. So does daddy. He can't wait go be my greatest labor partner. We can't wait to see you for the first time sayang, come faster!!! Grow well inside us precious princess. May you be the best khalifah Allah sent us.

We love you. So much.
Love, Mommy & Daddy.

Thursday, October 16, 2014

35 weeks and counting.

Hello :)

Babybump apps says - 36 days left. Jeng jeng. How is it like to have severe labour contraction..?menggelupor kah? Menjerit2 haru kah? Ha..itu yg kite kene prepare fizikal mental rohani dan jasmani.

No doubt, sekarang pon mmg ade rase mild contraction..tapi sangat mild. Itu pun da tekejut sakang mokcik bile die datang. Mcm ala2 electric shock. Kalau tgh pegang pinggan mangkok ke, mahu melayang ke depan. But so far so good. I think it's normal. Baby's having smaller space to move it move it shake it shake it, so she tend to kick more (maybe she thinks that by doing that she'll get more spaces she wants..maybeeee). Takpe babyku sayang. Buat la ape2 yg patut. Mommy tahu, dlm tu takde channel astro untuk ditonton mahupun basikal utk dibuat ronda2.. You may proceed darling..woot woot..

Almost done. Except for baby stroller and car seat. We're waiting for the mom's and baby expo this coming saturday at the Mid Valley. Will grab one car seat maybe. Stroller.stroller.. MmYeah we need that too. Unless tangan daddy bakal patah riuk kalau yg nk keluarnye tu bajet dlm 3.5kg. But that can wait. We need the one that can hold baby up until 80kg. Wah? Baby ke raksasa tu?
Oh, oh.
Mommy's postnatal set. Checking on Tanamera postnatal set since few years back while enjoying full body spa with sarah (tak sangke aku akan mengandung..ngehngeh), the review's quite good plus plus they provide the traditional bengkung yg bertali2 macam pocong tu. Nk jd pocong jelite mcm mokcik? Whyy noott..? (Hair flippin')

Sleeping pattern? Naaaah. Harap maap nk tido lena mcm zaman remaja. Slept on my back - shortness of breath, on the right side - baby mengamok..sesak nafas kotnye, on my left side - bole tahan ok, tp bgn pagi rs pinggang mcm br lepas noreh getah seharian. Oh oh, smlm baby hafizku memberi back massage service terbaik dengan yu yeee cap limauuuu...torbaik tooq.. Tido smpi pagi. Rs mcm nk mc smbg tido. Eh. Terlebih sudah mak. Mmg syahdu bilamana menyedari diriku mempunyai seorang suami yang sangat memahami erti keperitan tubuh badan isteri semasa hamil. so touched..

"kenapa doktor salu suggest utk tido mengiring sebelah kiri..? Karena - pengaliran darah (bukan dadah ok) akan smooth aje..dari seluruh badan ke jantung, jantung ke badan, dari mommy ke baby..because.. Your liver located on your right side of your body. So kalau yu baring ke kanan, your uterus (aka rahim) menyempit ke arah liver tu dan your main vessel from your liver yang bawak all those oxygen tu tekepit la senang cite. Kalau tido ngiring ke kiri, kite menyahkepitkan saluran darah
tu (warning: ini adalah info medical, tp bukan ayat2 medical, so asal faham maksud sudah). So ibu bahagia, anak harmoni.."
Bgn pagi senang hati.

Ok. Susa jugak update blog while seeing patients.
Pending dari siang tadi, malam baru click publish.
Sekian saja kenangan hidup yang ingin dikongsi untuk kenangan diri sendiri. Hehe. Adios!


Monday, September 22, 2014

New diagnosis.

Hello..! Assalamualaikum kepada fan fan di luar sane. ha kau. Sejak bile aku ade fan? Kipas KDK borong ade la. okei.

It's been a while. Last updated - March. Nk cite byk. Membuak2 banyak. Tapi skali depan pc, eh pergi bukak itu ini. FB, instagram, survey online stuff tayah ckp la, nak nak mse skang ni. Mase ape? HAaaaa... itu yg kak markonah nk kabokan sat lagi nooo. Hehe. Guane la so-called keyboard warriors boleh bertahan dpn pc gossip tu gossip ni, share tu share ni smpi bdarah jari jemari menaip. Gile tabik (tabik la sannnggat, jongket bahu mate juling sikitt)

ANYYYWAYYYY...i was diagnosed as..PREGNANCY! hehehe. With last menstrual period of February 2014, i am currently 31weeks + 4 days! Going into my 8th month of antenatal period. Fuh Fuh. Can't wait to see our precious lil one. Alhamdulillah, maybe i am one of lucky mommy in the earlier semester. Just sikit2 muntah sane sini, pening2 1-2 days and then ok balik. Alhamdulillah. Salute la dkt mommies out there yg mampu melepasi tahap Hyperemesis Gravidarum (a.k.a alahan) yg haru biru, menonggeng2 mnahan muntah, kurus kerengking. You guys rawk big time, seriously.

Preparation. Which one?
Yeah. Have to. Am i? InsyaAllah. Semoga Allah permudahkan urusan.
OK la. next blog la update pasal preparation. Bukan ape, kenangan. Kotak ingatan ni da makin tua (read: dewasa) makin mnjadi2 ilang ingatannye. Mane la tau nanti cucu2 boleh buat pedoman dan panduan. Ha, yu ols sgt! hahah
Till then!


Monday, March 24, 2014

Coffee Hunting 1: COFFEE STAIN by JOSEPH

Hello caffeine addict! :) Suddenly feels like being a coffee-hunter! haha. Instead of being Starbucker all the time, what if we tried something freshly-brewed-in-front-of-you that can satisfy our coffee-buds? hahahah

Have you guys tried Coffee Stain by Joseph? WOW wa cakap lu.
Location : D4-G3-01, Solaris Dutamas, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

You can have an awesome aromatic cup of coffee on wonderful Sunday morning with only less than RM10! I tried a cup of Latte Macchiato and the strong aromatic taste of it made my taste buds wanna cry! hahaha.

Me and hubby reached there around 10am. At first there's only a couple of customers were there. But, after an hour..  TARRRA! I'm surprised! Their coffee must be really good huh? :)

Oh they also had variety kind of meals! French toast with banana, pancake platter, egg royals, etc etc... and its cutely arranged!

This is coffee cube! I wanted this! But i only realized its existance after my macchiato ;((((
(Photo kidnapped from Mr Google)

The menu!

Inside the cafe.

Huh huh. enough for now! Summary : Coffee Stain by Joseph is a MUST TRY COFFEE SHOP!


Sunday, March 23, 2014


MH 370. Kapan oh kapan akan ditemui.

Hidup atau mati..Hanya Allah yang tahu.
Semoga Allah melindungi hamba-hambaNya. Yang mungkin sekarang sedang bergelut dengan.. Entah.


Friday, March 14, 2014

Owning a HOUSE.

Why? :) You need a place to see your kids grow. You need to spend more precious time with your husband before your kids come into your life. Selagi ada :) Cook in your own kitchen, messing with your own cooking stuff. Nice kan? Seriously, you need to build your own life. In you own house. Decorating here. Painting there. Buying new furnitures. wee wee.
Wow ini baru intro. Hahaha.

The question is..How much did you need to spend just to start the journey of buying house? I used to think that buying a house is just about paying a DEPOSIT of 10% out of the total price and thats it. But NO baby. I don't know about the Sales & Purchase (S&P) legal fees and stamp duty, bank legal, etc etc.

Let's have a brief look of the amount that you need to have in your pocket before buying a house.
Say that your house price is RM100k.
Please be informed that this steps is for SUBSALE (buying a house from an existing owner, not a developer) :))))
First, check your bank account. He he.oppa oppa.

In Summary:-

1) Pay for your house deposit : 10% out of RM100k = RM10k (3% to agent on behalf of owner and 7% directly to owner)
2) S&P legal fees/stamp duty= 2-3% out of the house price ~ RM3k (depends on your house price)
3) Apply for the Bank Loan (you can choose either Conventional or Islamic)
    - there's no big difference between this 2 types of banking. You need to find and compare the bank  
      that offer the most reasonable BLR (Base lending rate)
    - For example : Current BLR              : 6.6% (Based on current year)
                             BLR offered by bank  : (- 2.4%)
                             Actual interest for your home loan : 6.6 - 2.4= 4.2% out of RM100k
4) There are few documents that you need to submit in order to apply for the loan. Once submitted, wait for your loan approval which take around 2 weeks time.
     - At the same time your S&P lawyer will proceed with your S&P agreement and will call you up
       for the signing of the documents.
     - Make sure to check the details (name, ic, property address) and the terms inside the S&P since it
       includes the penalty charges for late disbursement etc.
5) Loan approved & bank offer letter will be issued. Once it is executed the bank lawyer will prepare all the documents. For the legal fees you can either absorb the cost in the bank loan and pay monthly according to your loan tenure or you can pay the legal fees separately. Sign the bank agreement once its ready.
6) Upon signing the bank lawyer will liaise with your S&P lawyer to prepare other essential document (transfer of ownership, etc)
7) After that just wait for your bank to disburse the money to either the existing owner's bank or to the person himself (depends on the his loan balance)
8) Jeng jeng. Wait for the complete documents to be send to you and of course, the key!

P/S : I haven't receive the complete documents nor the key after 2 months! Hahahahahah!

OK. That's it for now. Hopefully it helps! hehe.


Sunday, November 24, 2013


Hello :)

Day 3 post D&C - and i'm already walking here and there. Climbing up and down the stairs like no one cares. Ok. Hafiz cares. Dan berbuih-buih sudah mulutnya. But how meh? (do not do this at home).

Definition of 'pantang' - Pantang berundur sebelum berjuang. eh.Silap.

BERPANTANG a.k.a CONFINEMENT - refers to a condition where the mommies need to follow the rules of do's and dont's after the baby's delivery (kelahiran) OR after the miscarriage (keguguran). Nenek moyang dulu punya cerita. No wonder la, semua ayat pun ada bermula dengan "orang zaman-zaman dulu la". That is why when we ask doctors or other medical staff the term pantang is basically not exist. Apaa pon boleh..apaa pon boleh..ya kaaannn..??

Tapi, kalau tengok bebetul..ada jugak logicnya. Ada la jugak yang macam cool je, macam nk follow je, macam santekkkkkkk jee huk! Tapi kalau da sampai tahap tak boleh lalu bawah ampaian, kalau nak makan ayam kena makan ayam hitam la ginding la tegendong gendong la..dah macam pantang larang pakai susuk pon ade nih! Aku ni beranak ke pakai susuk? Cantiknye tidakk (tibe-tibe confuse). 

Oh. Some infos stated that if you had miscarriage when your pregnancy was below 3 months then your confinement period would be lesser and lighter. But if the pregnancy had been 3 months and above so you should follow the rules of the baby's delivery (wah!) The question is : IS IT TRUE?

Ok. Pencerahan oh pencerahan. 

Senang cerita. Follow your heart (But it's not easy, i know. It will end up with - follow your momma or grandmomma)

Duration : people said 44 days. Make it even worse 100 days. 
- 100 days? HUSBAND do not come any nearer. Continue the do's and dont's + do not have any sexual intercourse with your partner. Fullstop. Ceng ceng.
Ok, medically the uterus (rahim) will shrink due to birth, the cervix and vagina were traumatized due to vaginal birth and same thing happens to caesaerian- section wound. They need their own sweet time to recover and regain their original state. It takes about 4-6 weeks to recover (6 weeks x 7 = 42 days kan?). 100 days - Give it more time. 44 days? OK ler teww...

Foods and supplement : yum yum
- Why there are soo many foods that we need to avoid and the only few that we can take are so NOT DELICIOUS? i conclude : 1) To ensure the breastmilk that the baby consume is SAFE!  2) To make sure the good wound healing post-delivery. Itu je.  
- Snakehead fish (ikan haruan) is known to be traditionally healing the wound caused by the vaginal/caesarian birth. Yes. It's clinically proven too! The amino acid and fatty acid content is important in synthesis of collagen fibres during the wound healing. Gamat a.k.a sea cucumber. Their regenerative abilities are proven for wound healing process. Yes, we doctors don't give medication to heal wound after the delivery because they will absolutely heal naturally and the most important is to keep least medication for safe breastfeeding process. Say no to JAUNDICE baby!
But mommies, it will bring no harm to take supplement or trusted home remedies. Discuss with your doctors :)
- Egg, peanuts, wheat , yogurt, ice-cream, cheese : known to have allergen that can cause the breastfeeding baby to have allergic reaction  (especially if the family already have the history of allergy)
- Garlic? yawn. Baby will definitely not liking it when the milk tastes like garlic. Yaa kaaann..?
- Fruits: Avoid citrus fruits such as oranges, apples, pineapples - it may irritate the cute stomach and causing diaper rash
- Caffeinated drink : Wo, you won't let your baby to have insomnia and sleepless night yaww. 
- Fish : Avoid swordfish. tilefish. It contains high mercury level that can cause gases for the baby's stomach. Make it short, makan je la ikan haruan kome tu ye.

- keep the uterus in place. Avoiding 'jatuh peranakan' ya kannn...?Anyway it's good to bring back your pre-pregnancy shape.  Awww...

Walking/Sitting/sleeping position: Up to you la joyah. tak payahla kaki sampai atas muke husband ke, kepale bawah katil. Rare sangat tu. Sopan santun je la. Slow and steady. Why rush? Maternity leave 2 months minimum kan? Yang penting, make yourself comfortable. And i'm sure you will not be as comfortable as before during you first week after the delivery due to some few final uterus contractions you're having (uterus is working hard to regain it's old shape back)

Postnatal massage: No problem. Proceed if you want. It just giving you some extra energy.

Correct me if i'm wrong. I have less experience in this. Seriously.

Finally. Congratulations to all beautiful mommies out there! You've done aaa veryyy great job out there wherever you are. Iznee's so proud of you!

Woot woot!